I have given lots of thought to the naming of this experience, and the word "plan" does not sound near as inviting as "project". The language of project invites a curiosity. It becomes a more creative endeavor where you are piecing together seemingly discordant experiences and shaping them into some sort of collective experience over time. Besides, I still want to keep with the alliteration. I like it.
Today I have been working on a piece to submit to the North American Association of Drama Therapy as they have chosen me as their Member Spotlight for April. I felt very humbled by the ask, and went back and re-read the Spotlights from February and March. A Fulbright Scholar and Harvard Fellow respectively. And then there is me.
"Not sure how to play with that", says the voice of the ever looming critic.
On the one hand, I felt very proud to be amongst such esteemed colleagues, and then of course I felt completely out of their league. I read and re-read my story and repeated to myself several times: "My work is important. My work is important. I am important". I have to continue saying it like a mantra as I seek to deepen and expand my work and myself.
I have been typing and listening all afternoon. Listening to birdsongs and the neighborhood cats as they cry for one another. Listening to Krista Tippet's On Being and John Bergman's You Tube interview about his work. But even more than that, I have been listening to my heart's desire which continues to be to do more, more, more. I am quite proud of the work that I have done thus far, and know that I have so much more to do. I have heeded the call and I am walking in the light. Dancing in the light. Skipping and hopping in the light. As I continue to take this road, travelled by some - following in their footsteps and then blazing my own trails. Watch it glow!
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